I haven't slept pretty much at all last night/this morning.
I couldn't fall asleep until like 230, then I woke up at 4 feeling wayyyyyy nauseas.
I got sick all over my bed :( then some more in the bathroom.
then I called Adam to cry.
I hate being home alone, especially when I'm sick.
my tummy is still way upset, and I haven't ruled out round 2.

fuck the pasta house and their meatballs.


and I already tried to get someone to cover my shift last night so they're going to think I'm faking it if/when I call in


I'm miserable :(
bring me 7up and pepto bismol??

I'm sitting in the lobby of Meineke, which smells like the inside of a school bus, waiting for my muffler to get fixed.

I thought I'd take this opportunity to say that I appreciate my life. Its not perfect, but I'm happy. And in love with someone who is far away, but who loves me and respects me maybe more than I deserve, and who treats me like I deserve to be treated. And I'm in school. And those things are really, really great, ya know?



In other news, baby girl for real needs a job.



Also, Adam is coming to visit for a WEEK in October. And we're going to six flags fright fest with my sister and Ross, just like old times. I. can. not. wait.
Sexfest 2K8.

Life is great.


I'm glad to be me these days.

It's Saturday and I'm at work.
I'm getting paid time and a half to poop and update my eljay right now. Awesome.

Tonight is the last free weekend night I have until I move.
Shits crazy awesome.
I'm working a ton next week and weekend to ensure Chicago and California spending money.
I can not wait. Seriously.


The parking ticket people hate me and I swear they have it out for me and my car.




Being vegan is way awesome so far.
I'm proud of myself!

I never update this thing. It's okay.
Everything is starting to happen really fast. Its okay, too.

I'm emotional about my brother going on tour.
I just sent Erika a text saying exactly that.
One month and one day until I fly to California to visit him! And I get to see Jansen.
insane.

Its crazy to me how fast time goes.
Everyone says it gets faster the older you get. I believe them now.
I hope I appreciate everything like I should.


I'm killin it in my new dress and cowgirl boots.
3rd show, 3rd night in a row.



Damn, babygirl.

Sitting in my car on my lunch break eating french fries and barbecue sauce.
I definitely thought for the past 10 minutes that someone in another car had classical music turned up way loud.
Turns out, NPR plays classical music all day and I forgot my radio was on.
Dense.


I'm feeling anxiety about almost everything. Job, school, money, friends, haircuts, Adam, Cincinnati.
I've resorted to smoking (again) and biting all of my nails off and picking at my split ends.
Gross habits.

I spend way too much time in my own head.


I have an interview at buffalo wild wings next week. Don't know if ill actually take a job, especially since itd only be for like 2 months, but its a nice thought.
To actually feel 21, ya know?
You probably don't. Its okay.


I'm getting my brothers and sisters named tattood on my wrists tonight.
Big and beautifully black.




I need a bike.

uhh, not that anyone cares
but
friends only from here on out
i don't want to be stalked by my work.
KTHX!